“Your fears climb up
Your spine like spiders
How can I show you
You have nothing to fear?”
I am afraid
Why am I so afraid?
I don’t exactly know how to get better
I don’t know how to get well
I know how to eat, but I don’t know how to actually get well. I don’t know how to get anorexia out of my mind.
It seems its stuck.
Why does food=fat in anorexia’s mind?
Why do I listen to anorexia when I know that food=fuel & food=fun.
How do I resurrect my true mind?
How do I resurrect my true self?
Where am I?
I need to find myself & I need to get well.
How do I do this?
The other day I ate a snack. A real, true, food, snack. I felt so proud and so accomplished & I know it was a major step. But that was last week. And this is this week.
This week & cannot get myself to step off the scale. I cannot get myself to realize that I am more than a body. I am a soul WITH a body. My soul is more important than my body.
So why do I let my soul die just to see my body become nothing but bones?
What am I doing?
I will get well.
I will live
I do not want rex any longer.
Onto the eats:
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