Monthly Archives: July 2010

Poet trees & cakes in cups !

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I am so ALIVE!!!!!!!!!! :)D!!:!)!:!_)!:)!:)!:!!  

Lovely ladies, I don’t even know where to begin!  Life has been unfolding so fast for me latley as I have let go of calorie counting!!! INTUITIVE EATING IS SOOO FREEING!!  

Come and Join Me In Recovery and Come to Life!!

There is so much life awaiting you !  

Your beautiful soul is just waiting and longing to come to life!!  

Don’t listen to EDDY any more!!! You are so much more than your body  

YOU ARE NOT A BODY! YOU ARE A SOUL! WHAT YOU HAVE IS A BODY!!

If you can’t tell, I am doing so well : )  Operation Restore my Metabolism worked fabulously and I have had so much energy and LIFE latley!!   

Its so great and so freeing to go to work with my wonderful monsters (toddlers) and have enough energy and life to carry them, hold them, run with them, and clean up their messes!  

Last friday I challenged myself.  I gave up my carefully calculated breakfast meals in place for completley free, and completly uncalculated breakfasts.    

I switched over to oatmeal.  

Every morning I challenged myself to have a different creation.  

Free of calculated calories and nutrition  

Free to listen to my mind and my body.  

I AM SO FREE!!  

BEHOLD THEIR BEAUTY!  

    

MmmmMmm so nommy Blueberry peach oats with a pie crust cookie : )

 

Fresh berry oats!

FREAKING FRESH FIGS!

Strawnaner Oats! theese were my favourite!

 

I have also had so ososoososos much ice cream this week!!!  

I don’t know why. But Ice creams one of those foods that I don’t really fear too much.  I mean I do sometimes. But I think I just love it too much to give it up!  

Watermelon & Ice cream! GO TRY IT NOW!!!!! one of the best things ever!!!! I also added chocolate chips and some Kashi Go Lean Crisp!

Ice cream cone mess!!

...I went crazy for toppings but i still wanted a cone. lol

A couple of months ago when I was in the midst of ED, I NEVER allowed myself to have sugar.  I think thats why whenever I eat a dessert or even fruit with a little honey I feel like such an overcomer!! Deserts are afterall my favourite : )  

I Also made WONDERFUL! (almost ) VEGAN cupcakes!!!!!  

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and I had two today  

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AND I DIDN’T FREAK OUT OR ALLOW EDDY TO DESTROY MY MIND!!  

  

So Osososo Good  

One last food picture !  

My delicous dinner of tonight!! My mom and I finally made it to the farmers market!! This creation is wonderful bibb lettuce wraps!! with avocado, fontina cheese, little baby orange tomatos, bloobs, and a toasted pita!! SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO good!

 Also I managed to talk to a suuuper cute boy while I was there 🙂  Eating well for my body has given me so m uch more confidence! Not even my mom could believe that I managed to talk to a complete stranger boy. Who happened to be attractive!!!  

YES PLEASE ! I couldn't bring myself to buy one though unfortunatley. My baby sunflower has stolen my heart and I cannot betray it

 I Love farmers markets. ! They are so beautiful and natrual and real and lovely.  I wish I could do all of my grocery shopping that way.  I also have dreams of someday selling my own wonderful baked goods at one 😉  

Also!  

A poem found its way into my mind this morning!   

I don’t know if its any good, but I thought I’d post it anyways considering it concerns ED and Recovery.  

So without further adieu (lol sp?), I present you with a poem straight from my mind:  

   

   I didn’t feel beautiful

And I didn’t feel pretty

I didn’t feel attracitve

And I didn’t feel like I was worth anything.

 

The bones upon my back

And up and down my spine

Cry at to my soul

and say “we’re not fine fine fine!”

 

This isn’t human

And this isn’t right.

You’re more than just flesh.

Why must your skin be spread so tight

–Across your bones And across your organs

Across your sternum and over

The bones

That make up your hips

They’re meant to be hidden treasures

Unseen to the eye

You’re not meant to float away,

YOU’RE MEANT TO FLY FLY FLY!!

 

So don’t let Ana, or any other beast

Pile up your bones

As you’ve been laid to sleep.

 

Lol thats it.  I feel sorta silly posting it, but it felt sosoososososoos great to write it down this morning!!

 

 

LOVE

<3Kaity

 

Monstrous, Gigantic Post on Overcoming Monsters and Giants

Hullo Lovelys!!! Thankyou all soooSOO much for all your comments and encouraging words on last weeks post!! This is prolly going to be a super big, gigantic, monstrous post. Hence the title name. I forshore had some victories this past week!! As well as many obstacles.

AHhhhh a monster i am currently working on 🙂

Latley I have been very scatter brained, so if this post seems to be a little off, please forgive me : )

A Yummy LunCh!!!

And now lets proceed onto my weeks adventures : )

This past Fourth of July weekend has been SOOOSOOO FUN!! Me and my family vacationed on a small little island up North and it was so beautiful!! We stayed at this suuuuper fancy hotel and had 5-course dinners! I felt like a princess. : )

But as always, ED came in and reared its ugly head multiple times.

AND WHAT DID I DO YOU ASK?!?!

So much beauty

 I IGNORED HIM LIKE THE LITTLE LIAR HE IS!!!!

I had sooosoosoo many victories this past weekend : )

A SNACK!!! Why? BECAUSE I HAD HUNGER AND OBEYED IT!!

I ate snacks when I wanted.

Rolling Clouds

And I enjoyed 5 course dinners with the company of my family!!

Apitizer! Some sort of tart

Chilled Sweet Potato Soup!

A strange but wonderful Salad!

AHhhh Gigantic Monster asparagus Ravioli!!! With lentils hiding beneath

DESERT!! Chocolate brownie with a chocolate covered strawberry!!!

Now let me add, that that was all just ONE meal!! Way more than what I would normally eat in one siting!!! But it was alll sooooSOO good and I told ED to shut up and ate it all !! Major guilt followed, but so did many relaxing walks in which I was so distracted and awestruck by the beauty on the island that I forgot all about ED.  I also told myself that this was all a part of “OPERATION RESTORE KAITY’S METABOLISM”. lolol That helped me a lot considering I think I have been undereating the past week prior to our trip.

 

This is where I enjoyed many quiet times with Jesus 🙂

And you know what I noticed!?

AS I ATE MORE FOOD, I HAD MORE ENERGY!!!

I RAN! JUST BECAUSE I FELT LIKE IT!! (I never usually feel like running)

I TOOK MANY MORE WALKS BECAUSE MY BODY WANTED MOVEMENT! Not because of nasty ED

I SWAM FOR THE FUN OF IT!

It was such a great realization to me !! : ) I feel like the lights have finally turned on! More food = More Energy!!

When I listen to my body and nourish it accordingly, I find that I am rewarded with enough energy to do everything I want to do!

 
 

Sitting by thee pool : ) A sun burn followed

Cook out lunch!!!

Snow cone!!! a plain snow cone that is : ) artificial flavors make my stomach ache

Swimming makes you hungry!! A snack by the pool 🙂

Wonderful Breakfast!! Oatmeal and LOTS of Fruit!!

 

Stewed Prunes and fresh sliced Naners

One afternoon, the hotel hosted an ice cream social. Lol I LOOOVE ice cream so I joined in on the fun. As I went up to get my ice cream, the server man placed a HUGE scoop into my cup. He then proceeded to ask if I would like another scoop. Enter ED. As ED and I raged within the confines of my head, the man just decided to give me another extra scoop and said "why not? Your already here" And You know what I did? I DIDN'T FREAK OUT! And then I proceeded to put a zillion and a half different toppings on it 🙂 This was prolly one of my favourite parts of the whole trip ❤

LOVE

 Needless to say, That this was a very fun and healing vacation 🙂

But when I returned home yesterday evening, I found ED everywhere I looked.  Everything at my home is so triggering and reminds me so much of the past.  I AM GOING TO GET WELL THOUGH AND I WILL NOT FORGET MY VICTORIES!  I am SSOO determined to get better.  I am sick of ED robbing me of my LIFE and energy and joy !  This morning I weighed myself and was not surprised to find that I gained a pound. My first thought was OMGSSSH I MUST LOSE THIS!  But upon careful reflection I said SCREW ED! Im going to keep this pound 🙂 This is MY POUND and counts towards VICTORY and RECOVERY!! This pound represents life and joy!  and I will not allow ED to rob me of my life any longer!! (with Jesus’ help of course).

And now I will leave you with one last picture

I found this beauty outside of my house. My mom must have forgotten about him! I am currently nourishing him back to life and in return he is going to produce me with a beautiful tomato 🙂

 

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LOVE

❤ Kaity