Hullo Lovelys!!! Thankyou all soooSOO much for all your comments and encouraging words on last weeks post!! This is prolly going to be a super big, gigantic, monstrous post. Hence the title name. I forshore had some victories this past week!! As well as many obstacles.
Latley I have been very scatter brained, so if this post seems to be a little off, please forgive me : )
And now lets proceed onto my weeks adventures : )
This past Fourth of July weekend has been SOOOSOOO FUN!! Me and my family vacationed on a small little island up North and it was so beautiful!! We stayed at this suuuuper fancy hotel and had 5-course dinners! I felt like a princess. : )
But as always, ED came in and reared its ugly head multiple times.
AND WHAT DID I DO YOU ASK?!?!
I IGNORED HIM LIKE THE LITTLE LIAR HE IS!!!!
I had sooosoosoo many victories this past weekend : )
I ate snacks when I wanted.
And I enjoyed 5 course dinners with the company of my family!!
Now let me add, that that was all just ONE meal!! Way more than what I would normally eat in one siting!!! But it was alll sooooSOO good and I told ED to shut up and ate it all !! Major guilt followed, but so did many relaxing walks in which I was so distracted and awestruck by the beauty on the island that I forgot all about ED. I also told myself that this was all a part of “OPERATION RESTORE KAITY’S METABOLISM”. lolol That helped me a lot considering I think I have been undereating the past week prior to our trip.
And you know what I noticed!?
AS I ATE MORE FOOD, I HAD MORE ENERGY!!!
I RAN! JUST BECAUSE I FELT LIKE IT!! (I never usually feel like running)
I TOOK MANY MORE WALKS BECAUSE MY BODY WANTED MOVEMENT! Not because of nasty ED
I SWAM FOR THE FUN OF IT!
It was such a great realization to me !! : ) I feel like the lights have finally turned on! More food = More Energy!!
When I listen to my body and nourish it accordingly, I find that I am rewarded with enough energy to do everything I want to do!
Needless to say, That this was a very fun and healing vacation 🙂
But when I returned home yesterday evening, I found ED everywhere I looked. Everything at my home is so triggering and reminds me so much of the past. I AM GOING TO GET WELL THOUGH AND I WILL NOT FORGET MY VICTORIES! I am SSOO determined to get better. I am sick of ED robbing me of my LIFE and energy and joy ! This morning I weighed myself and was not surprised to find that I gained a pound. My first thought was OMGSSSH I MUST LOSE THIS! But upon careful reflection I said SCREW ED! Im going to keep this pound 🙂 This is MY POUND and counts towards VICTORY and RECOVERY!! This pound represents life and joy! and I will not allow ED to rob me of my life any longer!! (with Jesus’ help of course).
And now I will leave you with one last picture
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